As A Child I Wanted To Be

I'll Never Live To Write All The Stories I Have In My Head.

As A Writer, I Absorb Stories, Allow Them To Churn Within My Own Head And Heart - Often For Years - Until I Find A Way Of Telling Them That Fits Both My Time And Temperament.

But Now, Like A Fallen Sparrow On A Golden Chain, I'm Forever Bound In Shadow, A Prisoner To My Pain.

I Think That If We Can't Go Back, Then We Should Try Even Harder To Go Forward. And I Do Want To Go Forward, To A Place Where Loving Someone Because They Have A Gentle Smile And A Friendly Hello Is As Easy As It Once Was.

Sometimes I Feel Like I Have Walked Into The Middle Of A Movie. Maybe I Can Make My Own Movie. The Film Will Be The Story Of My Life. No, Not My Life, But Of This Experience. I'll Call It What The Lady Who Is The Prosecutor Called Me. Monster.